Back in my day....

So as i was going through my Creative Cloud account to check up on a few things, i stopped and looked at the list of software that i have at my fingertips. For a short moment i think about how my 18 year old self would have felt knowing what toys that lay in his future. Sure we had Dreamweaver and Photoshop back then too. But compared to the things something like Photoshop is today... It was about a step above hacking lines in to stone. But unlike some people who only can see the saturation of a crowded market and a march of technology that slowly leaves them behind i am really glad for this. Not only does it make my life a lot easier as tools get better and become more affordable, but it acts as a equalizer. 

You see when i was young... Pretty much the only way to get Photoshop was to pirate the living shit out of it. Why... Cost... The product it self was aimed at a professional market and priced as such. At around 10-15.000 SEK it was not only a pipe dream, it was beyond reality. Me and others did reason that pirating it was a victim less crime. It was not like we took away sales from Adobe since we could not even buy the software even if we pooled together. 

Now i like to say that this does not excuse what we did, nor does it actually creates a moral ledge for us to stand on. Now the thing was ofc that outside of Paintshop Pro, Coral Draw and Photoshop there was not much to work with. So we simply did not give a fuck. We where young and brash. Not saying that renting your software from Adobe for a few hundred a month is all that much better. But going by the price of Adobe software in the past the pack i currently have active would run me in the hundred of thousands SEK range, and that is one torture i prefer to have delivered one needle prick at the time. 

Anyway... As i said it is a equalizer because today pretty much anyone can get a computer and a software package that let them work with digital art, and pretty much every smartphone have a camera good enough to at least start out as a photographer och video photographer. The gatekeepers are fading away and that in my mind is a good thing. Sure it is getting harder to stand out and it becomes much more about marketing your self and creating a brand. But at least you do not have to work with stone age tools or steal to get going. Heck you do not even have to bow down to the likes of Adobe, Free software like GIMP and the fairly cheap Clip Studio paint offer really good places to start with digital art and for video and audio there is a plethora of tools. 

I look forward to see what the future holds and i wish the kids of today the best of luck as they try their own wings creating the most amazing things. 

Not particularly much meat in this post, but what is a personal blog worth if one can not indulge in the fancy of thought every now and then. 

Until next time

Stay safe, be kind and play fair. 



The working gamers dilemma.

So i was thinking about what to put my limited gaming time budget in to. While i now have the funds to get the games i want (not all at the same time.. but you know.) and also have a computer that can play them i have been putting some serious thinking time in to what game to get. While i still tend to put in a match or a few of OverWatch and i keep a subscription to WoW running for my own amusement.

But beyond that i am for all intents undecided. With the current Humble monthly offering Total War:Warhammer for a really good price. But it eats a lot of time and i am not sure i have what it takes to actually enjoy the game. Heck if i can not find time to sit down with the sims... Total War i think is a bit outside of my league. That is what i really like with Overwatch, casually playing quick matches demands no time from me. Just pop in... bang bang.. shut down.

But looking forward there is of course the next Mass Effect game, i have played through the original trilogy and i am looking forward to this one. But again.. time. It is a must play for me so time will have to be made i guess.

Beyond that it is mostly "older" games, as in games that have been released in the past year or so that simply kicked the arse of my old computer. I have been doing some the Division as i really enjoy the SP part of the game, shallow and not very complex as it is. This does lean me towards looking to pick up Watchdogs2 and while even older still i am really thinking about getting the final installment of the Witcher series again.. solid stuff.

and still i come back to the same old chestnut... time.

It is that old catch 22 like position that you only have the money to play games when you do not have the time... and vice versa. But since i can not live of casually playing the games i want to play... Heck even if i would make a career of Youtube would i have the time to play the games i like to play. That would also in way be to taint the well, as i would be making my poison of choice my job. Not sure how well that would turn out.

But that is i guess what getting older is, the dividing of time and resources. In that way life becomes a most harsh
resource management game. One without save files or resets.

But that is what it is.

Until next time
stay safe, be kind and play fair.


Capaldi done with Dr Who. My take.

So i missed posting last week. Sorry about that.

But that is in the past and unless you have pocketed a TARDIS, we can not change that... Speaking of that. The TARDIS that is.

My sort of favourite doctor (no that is not doctor Cox.. even if he is a close second.) Peter Capaldi is going to regenerate his posterior out of Dr Who. While i can understand him, he will be missed. Now i was not that big of a fan to begin with. He felt a bit forced and overly abrasive. But over time i grew to like his manners in the role and how he portrayed a post silence and the end doctor. A person who have seen some shit and perhaps just have grown a tiny bit tired of the role as the maid to the entire time and space. In fact it feels like his doctor was the one to break the most rules and mess up the most. 

I come in peace... To rock out.
After all tho can forget gems like this or him crashing a sort of viking warlords party. In a tank if i do not recall incorrectly. Now i have my ideas and wishes for what to come next and i would like to see a femDoc... But since Moffat have proven to be a very unreliable creator when it comes to female characters i am not sure i actually like to see that happen right now. Not until Moffat is firmly removed from anything that has to do with story, tone or direction. Great at writing scary stories... not so good with lead females. 

Anyway back to the rockstar with the phoneboot. I am sure he will be remembered fondly by many and that as per usual the person stepping in to the shoes will have a mighty pair to fill. At least we get another season with the man who dared to wear a pair of sonic sunglasses... (don´t do that again.. EVER) so enjoy and keep hope for the future. 


The road ahead...

So as the year slowly get rolling things are looking bleak as fuck... Well on a macro level at least. Personally things are looking fairly good. I have a good job and most of my health.. at least as much as a man of my girth can ask for.. and then some.

But beyond that it is pretty much "start stockpiling cans and bottle water" level. Not only is Trump fucking nuts... Perhaps even literally. The Brits decided to fuck them self and people with opinions that  years ago would call for a permanent vacation home in Argentina are getting platforms all over the place.

So the next couple of years are going to be interesting.

But on the flip side of that, being a geek right now is fucking fabulous, between the Marvel and DC movies/Tv series and every kind of merch one could ever ask for my only sad emotion is that i am not swimming in cash. This is also the year that i decided to do like EVERYONE else and  run a YT channel as a hobby project. I have talked about this earlier but not until now have i actually the PC to let me do it proper. I do not really have a goal, i´l be happy for any views i get and it is mostly for fun (and a way to keep my self motivated to play around in Premier) but since i never tire of my own voice and think that i am pretty awesome this will be a vanity project if i ever saw one. tune in to TAWESS on YT to see what that turns in to.

Beyond that the blog will continue on ever Tuesday and i promise to keep on posting stupid and irrelevant stuff.

Yeah... I am sooo out of stuff to write about today... Sorry...

Until next time, stay safe, be kind and play fair... Bye.


In sickness... We trust. Ghosts we bust.

So this is a bit late.

My bad.

I got some form of bug in the system.

But that is neither here nor there at this point. Lets get on with the show.

So i finally got around to seeing the new Ghostbusters movie. And while i respect that people have a differing opinion. It is a good movie, it is stupid and goofy and all i really want from a popcorn flick. Especially as i never really considered the original one to be anything beyond a good comedy. Maybe it is this freedom from the shackles of nostalgia that seem to have afflicted so many people online, that gave the opportunity to just see it for what it is. 

The idea that something have to surpass it´s source in every way. That is a dangerous one. Because it leads to either building way to much hype or becoming a eternal cynic. Of course in this day and age there is good biz to getting the hate-train. In fact i daily find new channels and blogs that thread that path as their sole and only thread. This is not new but it becomes so visible when your entire front page on You Tube is plastered with it. Not to mention how quick people are to ump down the throat of anyone not getting on the train. I have talked before on how the pure naked rage seen online these days is kind of disturbing. I know that most people are like me, people who can look at an issue and say "well i do not agree" without calling for someones head. 

For an example, let me use the example of Anita Sarkeesian, I far from agree with all she says. In fact i could argue some points until my head falls off. But not only does i see that someone had to take those lumps, stick their neck out and have it more or less chopped off. Because being polite and conforming would not have worked. So i simply shrug my shoulders, build some more or less logical arguments for the points i disagree and then go on my merry way. Should i ever end up in a conversation with her i know what to do. No way along the way is that to make threats or send someone actual shit in the mail. 

I feel this very much apply to the new Ghostbusters movie. Some people more or less competed to be the biggest arsehole on the internet. Of course this did have little impact on the movies numbers and i honestly think that SONY was happy about all the free marking they got. Not only was the movie constantly in the limelight but due to the angry people on the internet. Everybody had to have an opinion. I also hpope they stick to their guns and push the sequel because the universe is actually a good one. Heck in some ways i think it surpass the original. 

It is only a bit sad that it´s legacy will always be tainted by the toxic sludge it spawned. 

anyway... Enough rambling. Now i am going to down some cold pills and sleep. 

Stay safe, be kind and play fair. 


A Star Wars story: Rogue One. - No spoilers impressions

So this will be as per usual the more spoiler free version, no major plot point or stuff revealed (beyond what is revealed in the ep 4 crawl). More my own opinions and feelings about the movie in general and it´s place in the greater universe.

It was fucking awesome .. .

In my opinion at least.

It was for all intents and purposes getting the whole wink n nod thing right. Unlike The Force Awakens that more or less pelted you over the head with oh look at this callback to the old movies. Rogue one does it a lot smoother and gentler. The plot, as far as you need it can be read in the opening crawl of ep 4. But it was a very good story and it wraps up nicely. This is important seeing as this movie is a sort of stand-alone movie. You do not like to have sequel or cross-over bait in a stand-alone movie. Sure it has a fairly large cast and more than a few of them end up nothing more than a face on the screen. But the core cast is solid and it is a diverse set of characters. Very nice to see and a welcome nuance from the Force Awakens.
The movie also gets both the visual and the audio bits really right. Beyond some really impressive special effects it also have a good overall visual style. The different planets are distinct and we get some new ones. Like the beach settings as well as some old classics. The audio is as solid as always, things sounds and feels the way it should.
It is also nice to see Disney are using the lessons learned from the Marvel movies and incorporate parts from the broader universe. This also explains why they first wiped the slate clean with the old expanded universe. Being able to pick out the best crumbs of 30+ years of brainstorming must be awesome.
Anyway. I will do a more spoiler type review next week. But my general thoughts are tat you should go see this if you like Star Wars or space fantasy in general.

Just don´t let your expectations choke you.



Tracer stirred up some emotions // rip Carrie Fisher

While i was writing this post i read that Carrie Fisher died from what it looks like right now complications as result of a earlier hearth attack, So let me pay my respects to the first lady of Star Wars. While i have no personal connection to Carrie Fisher, her work both as an actor and outside have been a inspiration to me and many others. She will be missed but it is in a way fitting that she ended her career working on the same franchise that catapulted her in to the spotlight and in the long run gave her a platform (and that maybe in it´s own way claimed her life in the end) Rest In Peace. 

Now back to your regular scheduled programming

I held off on making this post because i wanted to get a better image of any impact it might have. You see in it´s latest free comic for Overwatch Blizzard presented us with Tracers girlfriend. This in it self should not raise many eyebrows, after all characters are presented as having partner all the time in the entertainment medium. But you see, Tracer is ofc a girl. So this is political in many ways. Not only is it a pretty much unseen example of representation, a character that is not only well established and given a rich backstory but that is also the face of the brand. Tracer is the de facto poster girl for Overwatch, having been not only in the initial marketing material but also on the standard box art. Now i am a very cynical human being that honestly do not trust humanity at large to handle anything more dangerous then a sponge without trying to hurt them self or someone else. So i walked in to the Blizzards and other forums expecting to see a full and utter shitstorm... And to my delight and surprise i found very little of that (if one does a signal/noise analysis) sure you had some trolls trying to fan the flames and some people who seemed outright sad. But for the most of it people where either indifferent or positive. Most felt that the introduction by the way of a comic with family as the theme was fitting and not forced. Many like me also felt that the act it self carry a lot of weight but that it does not really change the character. Tracer is still Tracer. 

So Blizzard have issued a challenge of sort, proving that you can make someones sexuality a non-issue even if it breaks the typical mold. Tracer is not defined by her sexuality, she is defined by her personality (and that she is sort of unglued from time... As one tends to be. ). Who she dates is at the same time not important but also very important from the perspective of representation. Because the more exposure something gets, the more "normal" it becomes. This is an aspect i feel some people miss when they say thing like "we do not need the Pride movement" or "why can´t we just keep things like that in our homes." 

Rocking the boat is always going to create people who want to get back to status quo. Even if they are part of the community doing the rocking. But if nobody ever rock the boat, people in general will never know they are actually on the boat. 

So thank you Blizzard for doing this and... well... Cheers luv, the cavalry is here.